Assistant Architect

Assistant Architect by Xi He Qing Ling

Chapter 105: Enlightenment

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Living withGu Yu is not an illusion.

Theexperience of that night he spent at Gu Yu's house last year left a very deepimpression on Zhang Siyi. Especially now, that he acknowledged his love for GuYu, he wanted to spend his days, cooking, cleaning, chatting, drinking tea, andsleeping together. He did not want the time he spent with Gu Yu to stop.

But fantasyis ultimately an illusion. Zhang Siyi never expected Gu Yu to invite him tolive together. He felt that anyone who lived with Gu Yu had to be a special,talented individual with a very close relationship with him and that personcould never be himself.

There was atime when Zhang Siyi toyed with the idea that Gu Yu liked him and as such, hecould understand Gu Yu's offer. But now, seeing Tao Fei close relationship withGu Yu, Zhang Siyi felt inadequate and insecure.

Therefore,in the face of the big pie falling from the sky, Zhang Siyi instead feltoverwhelmed with bewilderment.

……. Is it true whatGu Yu said?

……. Why me?

……. If I say yes, whatabout the other person Gu Yu is waiting for?

……. Aren't I just takingadvantage of his kindness?

All kindsof doubts filled Zhang Siyi’s mind. He even accepted the dog. Such an enticing proposalis simply impossible to refuse. Gu Yu is waiting for his reply. Zhang Siyi tentativelyasked: "Do you only have one bedroom in your home?"

Although hehas already learned the truth from Gu Yao, Zhang Siyi subconsciously asked himthe question because he wanted to hear Gu Yu's attitude clearly rather then itbeing a moment of impulse.

Gu Yu:“The guest room can be packed up and you can live there."

Zhang Siyiwas surprised. Gu Yu's statement was contrary to the information that Gu Yaopreviously revealed. He remembered she told him the room was packed up early.But this is only a small doubt and Zhang Siyi didn't think too much about it.He asked: "Where does Gu Yao sleep?"

“Gu Yaousually lives at school and rarely stays over." Gu Yu looked up at him: “Ifshe comes, you will stay with me in my room.”

Zhang Siyi:“……” Ah, his heart couldn’t stop pounding wildly!

“What’sthe problem?” Gu Yu paused then asked: "or do you not want to live withme?"

Zhang Siyi repeatedlyshook he head: “No, no! I think…. I’m just wondering if it’s too much troublefor you."

Gu Yusighed and counter-questioned him: “I drove you home for the New Year, andI drove you back afterwards, and I practiced driving with you…. I haven't heard you say anything about troublingme before. Why are you being so polite now?"

Zhang Siyiremained motionless and silent.

No longertalking to him, Gu Yu turned to look at the messy living space and asked: "Ifthere is nothing else, I'll help you pack up your things."

Zhang Siyi:“Don’t you have to go to work?”

This time,Gu Yu didn't have the patience to answer Zhang Siyi properly and Gu Yu eyed himinstead. Zhang Siyi immediately was silenced. He pointed to the pile of clutterin the corner of the room to deal with. Gu Yu took off his coat and put it onthe sofa to help him organize it together.

Since hisunplanned absence caused his boss to also become absent and as a result, his Bossis now helping him pack his house instead of being at the company, Zhang Siyifelt unceasingly guilty. It is a crime!

…… But infact, Zhang Siyi felt very warm and even a bit joyful.

As theywere packing and cleaning, Gu Yu asked Zhang Siyi about his experience lookingfor an apartment.

Under thewarmth and comfort of Gu Yu, Zhang Siyi finally opened his heart and poured outmost of the bitterness that he was harboring. Many agencies demanded a finder feeupfront and as a result, Zhang Siyi was cheated out of a few hundred dollars. Thinkingabout it made Zhang Siyi depressed.

Gu Yulistened attentively then suddenly asked: “Didn't I message you in WeChatthat if there were any difficulties, to tell me? You couldn't find any suitableplace for so long, so why didn't you come find me for help?"

Zhang Siyilowered his eyes and quietly said: “You were too busy.” He did not daremention Tao Fei appearance and the real reason why he closed his heart. As aresult, he tried to overcome everything by himself and by doing so, he closedhimself off from everyone's help, especially from Gu Yu.

Gu Yucouldn’t help but give a lengthy sigh: “Yesterday's matter, I have toldyou, when you have a work problem, come to me for help. Life is the same……I won’t give up on you."

Zhang Siyithought it strange. There is no way under normal circumstance that a boss wouldtell his subordinate that they 'won't give up on them in life'. Zhang Siyi'sheart was warming in his chest, but he was unsure if there was any meaning tohis statement or not. He quietly questioned: "Because you promised my father thatyou would take care of me?"

Gu Yu raisedhis head and gazed at Zhang Siyi in the eyes. With overflowing, unspeakabletenderness he softly said: "Just because of you."

Zhang Siyi:“………”

Blushing acrimson red, Zhang Si Yi suddenly looked down and his heart was pounding. Insuch a short period of time, from the lows of yesterday to this afternoon'scrash, and now with Gu Yu's new revelations, his mood soared. With the numerousbits of indigestible information received suddenly, Zhang Siyi's brain wascompletely stirred into paste!

Once again,the answer came, but the sensible aspect of himself desperately tried toprevent him from thinking about it.……

Gu Yu loweredhis head and continued packing a box with the pile books in front of him. Heexplained: "Tao Fei and I are just friends. When I was a graduate student at TUniversity, we joined a team that participated in an architectural designcompetition. He is a very good designer. Although he is loud and has a temper, hisdesign ideas are very divergent. Moreover, he has received a master’s degree inthe UK and combined with his undergraduate domestic education, he has a uniqueset of designs insights. What he can teach you is probably better suited toyour current needs than I am. For two days, I wanted to arrange a meeting with ToaFei and have a meal together for a good chat, but you……" Gu Yu sighed, and lookedat Zhang Siyi oddly. "Well, I'll arrange for you to do several projects withhim and then you will understand when you see it."

Zhang Siyidid not ask for an explanation. Gu Yu seemed to have guessed his heart andanswered his doubts and uneasiness. Zhang Siyi is both ashamed and embarrassed.Did Gu Yu recruit Tao Fei just to help him improve?

It is truethat he was the only international student in Group A and there are no eldersof the same background to help him. Sometimes, Zhang Siyi questioned whether hisworking environment was suitable for his own long-term development or not.

Zhang Siyivery much recognizes Gu Yu's many viewpoints and the principle of doing things,but design is multifaceted. Each person has thier own concept and styles. WhileGu Yu is very strong, he isn't a comprehensive teacher.

After thisunderstanding, Zhang Siyi felt guilty once again. All along, Gu Yu was thinkingabout his needs and instead of communicating with him, he treated Gu Yu poorlyout of jealousy…. God, he feels like a complete idiot!

Until thismoment, Zhang Siyi felt completely relieved. Although he still has somelingering issues with Tao Fei, with Gu Yu's explanation, Zhang Siyi no longer wasstupid enough to be jealous over him.

Apart fromZhang Siyi own room, they cleaned up the rest of the apartment that afternoon. Althoughit is decided for Zhang Siyi to live with Gu Yu, it was too late to move tonight.The two agreed to make the final move on the weekend.

As theyplaced the last few bags in the garbage downstairs, Gu Yu received a phone callfrom the company. Standing fearful next to him, Zhang Siyi dare not make asound, but at the same time, he listened to Gu Yu speak on the phone. He wassurprised to hear Gu Yu lie about his whereabouts.

Hanging upthe phone, Gu Yu explained the situation to Zhang Siyi: “It is a temporaryproject meeting, I have to go back.”

Zhang Siyi:“I……"

­­­He wasgoing to say that he also would change his clothes and go back to work, but GuYu interrupted him: "Don't go. Rest well tonight then tomorrow, go to thepersonnel department to fill out an absentee note."

Droppinghis line of site, Zhang Siyi nodded.

Gu Yuraised his arm and checked his watch: "I wanted to take you out to eat, butthere isn't time now. Remember to eat dinner."

Zhang Siyi obedientlynodded again: “Hmm"

Gu Yusmiled and raised his hand to rub his head: “See you tomorrow…” He saidand added: “This time, I'll really see you tomorrow."

Zhang Siyi: "……"

Zhang Siyiwatched Gu Yu's backside as he walked away from Zhang Siyi's apartmentbuilding. Recalling the problem that has plagued him for a long time, his brainturned into paste again. The person Gu Yu likes, isn't it him?

Zhang Siyinodded again: “Hmm."

…… “Justbecause of you……"

…… It’s liketelling him, ” because I like you."

…… (o////o) ……

…… Is it true? GuYu really likes him?

…… But if so, whydoesn’t Gu Yu tell him directly?

…… Wait……. Couldit be, like himself, Gu Yu is afraid of saying it?

That's it!In Gu Yu opinion, he is a straight man who has talked about his girlfriend. Healso made it clear that he wasn't gay and Fu Xinhui was just a friend.

Oh, my God!

With hissudden enlightenment, Zhang Siyi was excited and pumped his fist. His stomachgrowled angrily……….. He’s hungry (=_=)

Fromyesterday evening until now, he did not eat. Zhang Siyi did not know how he hadany energy to support himself. At this moment, he felt like he desperately neededthe power of food!!!

Afterchanging clothes, Zhang Siyi ran downstairs and first bought rice balls andsausages from the a nearby grocery store. Then he rushed to the Soup shop: "Boss,a large bowl of five, no give me ten wontons, please!"

Half anhour later, Zhang Siyi touched his bulging belly which was stretched out by thewonton soup. He laboriously returned home to lie down in bed. Now that hishunger was satiated, he continued to ruminate over the recent events excitedly.If Gu Yu likes him, what is he going to do?

When Gu Yu expresseshis feelings, then they will be together as a couple?

…… Shit! Shit!

Zhang Siyinever thought about what it would be like to have a relationship with a guy.……

With only athought about being in love with Gu Yu, Zhang Siyi felt his heart pound and hisbody heated up from head to toe.

Not tomention, hugging and kissing, but also ……

Ah-ah-ah…Zhang Siyi buried his head in his pillow and didn’t dare think about it further!

Zhang Siyi didn't want to exhaust his energy on something that wasn't possible in the future and thus, he had to confirm his suspicions in order to make his next move.

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